Monday 7th January 2013
Sentencing.
So begins the final chapter of the court process. It was a Monday morning and everyone was at work. People couldn’t get time off so I asked my Dad if he would come along with me. I wanted to know what sentence this bastard was getting.
It was at Warwickshire Crown Court. Now this building is huge in comparison to Northampton CC. We had to go through the usual security checks and then we were in. There were many screens stating the different cases being held on which floor. This place was overpowering. We took a lift to get to the right court room. Dad and I settle into the court room, in the front seats near to the box where he would stand but so that he couldn’t see us. Sat next to us were a woman and a younger female. I have since learnt this was McDade’s mother and ‘girlfriend of the moment’, how this girl could stand by him when he was stood in the dock with these offences being presented I will never understand.
His mum however, would not look at us; she had probably guessed who we were. I understood that she must have felt torn, embarrassed by being there and having to listen to the awful details of the rape but also wanting to be there to see her son. Her pain on seeing the victim’s mum must have been hard too, I understand that.
The Judge arrived and McDade is called into the box. This is the part my Dad wasn’t expecting, they re-tell the whole case from start to finish so that all the details are heard in court. It’s not the most pleasant of times. To have to sit and listen to what my child had been through once again was just plain awful. I cannot begin to express the emotions you have in court. Sickness is probably the top one. The guilt re-emerges, the pain she had gone through, the stress, the constant blackmail, the horror.
I do nothing but cry, my Dad squeezes my hand and hugs me. It must be just as awful for him to listen to this but he stays strong and just keeps checking I am okay and ensures me it will all be over soon. For those that know my Dad, he doesn’t express emotion very easily so to have him constantly hold my hand and give me those little squeezes gave me strength I never knew I had.
McDade’s mother puts her head down. The girlfriend keeps trying to catch eye contact with us. She is looking to see McDade, peering over the edge of the seating area. To be honest I don’t think she had a clue as to the severity of the situation and that there was an actual victim involved in this, not just some scum bag she was calling her boyfriend.
So, the process is finished and the Judge does her summing up. She takes into consideration his early Guilty plea (WTF, he skipped court and then was arrested and placed back before her so then he pleaded, but yes he did plea….) she also considers his mitigating factors (mental health, father committed suicide at an early age etc) and then she slam dunks with an eight year sentence! Boom!
Now this is the best result we could have asked for, I know he only serves 4 but its 4 years my daughter does not have to keep looking over her shoulder. We leave the court with mixed emotions. I still hold that concern for his mother and what she must be feeling. This must be my moral philosophy. I am empathetic, and my standards are probably different to others.
I get to Dads car and I ring Lauren. Its good news I tell her, but she like me, found it difficult to take in. I comfort her and reassure her and then tell her I will be home as fast as I can. I then call Mum, sisters, family, friends: it is all a whirlwind of emotion.
We expect an excerpt in the local press; he actually got a very small mention. I wanted his face plastered all over the news for people to see who had done this to my child and to give him a taste of humiliation. This was never to be despite Northants Police release of a photograph and article. A short while after this, I retweet the link. A member of the press comes around and asks me for an interview, as a family we agree, so long as Lauren’s name is withheld. This was our chance at getting his face into the public arena. Turns out the Nationals papers weren’t interested, we were just another case, another blow, another rape.
So we start the New Year with a positive and we try to move on. Only McDade doesn’t allow us this. He appeals his sentencing. This means a trek to The High Court in London a day before we are due to fly out for our summer holiday. This time my mum and my hubby come with me.
Now I know I said that Warwickshire was huge but this court is off the scale. There is plenty of history around the building so we set off exploring whilst we wait our turn. My mum spots a sign, she says ‘Ooh Paul look there is a beer garden’, so we all head off looking to grab a beer to steady our nerves… . Well for those who have been it is actually called The Bear Garden. (This neither contains a garden or – you will be relieved to hear – any bears either! It is in fact a very elegant galleried Gothic room that was called the ‘Bear Garden’ supposedly by Queen Victoria who said that the bickering barristers sounded like a bear pit or garden where the hapless bears were goaded to fight dogs.)
You can imagine the fits of laughter that followed this little treasure hunt!! As if there would be a beer garden in the middle of the High Courts!!
So we trek back down to our little room still chucking away and then we bump into a barrister. I instantly recognise him, I approach him and tell him I am so glad he is here and I didn’t think he would be attending and ask what he thinks the outcome will be……. BUT.
Alas it isn’t our barrister but McDade’s, I burn up, apologise and scuttle away… And so begins another round of laughter in our little waiting room!
So, we are called through. A number of students file in and appear all excited at the prospect of listening to a real life case. I don’t think they know we are family of the victim.
Mcdade is called into the box again. His head low and there is no support from his family this time.
Three high court judges sit and are presented with the defendants case by his barrister. I have to say this defence barrister clearly can’t be bothered, he goes through the motions with no real convinction behind him. It’s like he doesn’t give a hoot!
The high court judge sums the whole case up again, another painful reminder of what our child went through. I sit staring intently at the judge, hands clenched as in prayer, waiting for the outcome. And he throws the case out with a flick of his pen. I mouth Thank You to him, the hubby gives him a thumbs up. The judge returns our gesture with a quick salute and a nod, I’m in awe of this man! He not only acknowledges us but actually salutes us!
So off we go again, we pop to a pub over the road and have a real beer in a real beer garden with no bears in site! Even my mum (who never drinks) raises her beer glass and we all relax once again!
But this is only the end until his release in October 2016.